Im emo - but not the current fashion fad that is currently what the teenagers are so into right now...gawd saying that made me feel so ancient! What I mean is, I am emotional at times but Im definitely not your drama queen. Today, Im just sooo depressed but I dont want to be - because being depressed makes me feel so alone and helpless. Thats why Iv decided to smile even it hurts. Id rather be hurting inside and feel the pain of being alive, than wallow in my own depression and finally become numb and empty.
Im just surprised ... that its difficult... Iv always prided myself in being able to mask my emotions so well - I never expected myself to be so transparent that my office-mates suddenly started asking me if I was alright.
I need to be alright - I cant afford not to be.
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you will be.. trust.. you will be..
:) I know, but I hope its going to be soon.
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